I could never stand the thought of hurting the most important people in my life. It breaks my heart to hurt them. I will die a thousand deaths before I can forgive myself for putting them in pain.
I’m at that one point in my life wherein I’m absolutely terrified of everything. I’m perpetually sad and miserable, one little thing could make me lose all that I have. And now I’m standing here wishing I could turn back time.
Knowing myself I probably wouldn’t want to admit how in love I am with you, but here I am saying that I do. I’ve never been more attracted to anyone before and never have I felt this way. You’re perfect. The moments I spend with you are perfect. The fights, are stupid but there’s nothing more rewarding and nothing I look forward to than making up with you. Fuck, all I want to do is spend every waking moment with you. And that’s only a small portion of how you make me feel. ❤
I know I talk about you a lot,
and maybe I shouldn’t say this since nothing is set in stone,
I only have my eyes set on you.
Yeah my brain is in the right place, and I’m sure my heart is too.
My self esteem right now is in shambles.
I want a man who is encouraging and who inspires me to be better, and someone who will let me be the same for him, as well.
I really need to save a lot this month. I wanna buy nudies and a nice expensive purse. However, though today marks the start of the ber months..
Which means next month, from October til December, I will be spending non stop ;(
Oh lord please help me save *praaaaays*
I’m watching a tv show and the guy bought his gf tulips. :$
I’ve always wanted a tiffany bracelet.
I’m definitely going to buy one next summer.
To get my nails done again or buy skinny cargos or both?
Majority of the boys I’ve had/ still have a crush on are named Ryan..
Also, my boyfriend’s name is Ryan.
Lol weird ass coincidence.
I absolutely love spending time with you, especially today. I love how we cuddled today while it rained, and took a nap (we haven’t done that in a while). Today, things that I’ve noticed before about you have completely surfaced and highlighted itself before me. I absolutely love how you hold me, theres such a huge amount of safety and assurance I feel when you do and I don’t think I’ve ever felt that type of safety and protectiveness from anyone aside from my dad. I also love how you hold me down. You do it so well, that I could never complain about it, it doesn’t feel degrading because to me it feels like you are owning up to being the man in this relationship not just the typical ‘it’s up to you’. Honestly, I never expect so much from you. I’m glad ‘though because as we continue to become more comfortable with each other and learn more about each other; I see you continually working on this relationship with me and I don’t know about you but to me nothing ever gets old with you. Things we do, they never seem routine to me. You know, if I had the chance to start over make everything different, I’d still choose you every time.
I’ve never gone through a day without seeing a woman with a coach purse. Honestly, coach has lost it’s touch here in Calgary ever since it opened an outlet store. Everyone has it. It’s no longer unique or special to me.
I am officially on my summer break, and officially done high school. Oh mann, I feel like I’ve been in high school forever… more like 6 years. 3 years in Manila,3 years in Calgary. Now that I’m done I can hopefully blog again.